November 23, 2007

Graduation Photo Albums and Friends

Is it popular to make a graduation photo album in western countries? Here, normally every kindergarten, school, university makes it every year for students who graduate in the year. As I'm at the last year of my university, we are also making our photo albums now. Since summer, a photographer comes here sometimes and is taking our snapshots or group photographs. Since I don't know most of the students that will be on the album, feel that having it is good. It will be one of the chances to remember my past...while I was at this uni.

I rarely see my past graduation photo albums, but when I look at them, they remind me my school life there. Whenever I look at them, I remember my friends, teachers, and who I liked, lol. They should have been changing for the time. Sometimes, I get surprised how much my friends changed. They started making up, their taste of clothes, most of my girlfriends became prettier than before. But 'NOW' is our prettiest time I think. Early in 20's is when girls are prettiest in their life. We are getting older and older... Of course I don't wanna be older, however, it can't be helped. Keeping our looks younger is hard unless we are not people in show business or if our job isn't about beauty I think.

Anyway, we took some photos for the album yesterday with my circle members and juniors. And after that, I asked to take a snapshots with some of my friends. I don't have many close friends in the uni, however, of course some of them are closer than other students in my class.

One of them is my closest gf in the uni, and one is ex-bf, and one is a guy that I sometimes go drinking with another friend...and I have a few other friends in the uni, but they are not in this photo, lol. One of them was with me and listened to my talk when I was dying last year when I had a broken heart, and the other asked me to go to have a meal together since he was anxious about me since he thought that I may have got desperate at that time, lol. Of course I didn't. However, I was glad that he felt care about me. So...I like my friends.

I think, I don't need a boyfriend, but need friends. When I was in high school, I had a bf, and was going out almost only with him. Because, if I have a bf, he is easy to ask to go with somewhere if I have places that I want to go. However, after breaking up, I thought friends are more important. Boyfriends are good only while when we like each other. I don't think it will last for a long time. I liked my bf so much when I was going out with him and thought that I would get married with him some day. However, it ended. Feelings change. However if he says that he likes me now, however I think that I like him now...don't think that we both will keep feeling so. However, it doesn't mean that I don't care about my bf. Of course, I will go somewhere...or do something with him, but don't think to care him too special. It doesn't mean that he is not special for me. Of course he is special because he is my boyfriend, I mean that I don't give him preference without special reason.

For example, if I promise to go to Disney land with my friends, and if my bf asks me to go there after making the promise, I will reject him. For me, previous promise takes precedence. It may be normal, but I know there are people who usually take their bfs or gfs higher and I don't like that. People like that will sometimes break the promise with me for their bfs and gfs. I don't think all of them are bad, of course it depends on the situation because there are sometimes things that have to be taken precedence than anything.

As I think that friends can keep much longer than bfs and gfs, I don't wanna look at only my bf. Friends will bring me more valuable life than bf. I can imagine my life without bf easily but can't imagine without friends. Friends play an important part in my life. However, I don't think that I have many good friends. There are some closer friend than other friends, and a few closest friends, but they are enough. I'd rather want a few good friends with deep relationship than making lots of light friends. If I get a really good friend, we can keep going out forever and ever until we die! And that is one of the things that I think don't exist between me and my bf at that time :s You may think that I'm a gf who got lost her feelings, lol. However, I also think that I'm not so good at being someone's gf :P

November 22, 2007

The Library -A Comfortable Place-

Since I noticed I had to study much harder to pass my exams, I started studying in the library almost every weekday after my classes. Our library is small and the spaces with desks were filled with students soon when it was a big exam season. However, since the newest modern building was built, the situation changed. The building is so clean and has many small room to study. So, many students who are using the building for classes started to go there and the library became with less people.

The fine neat building is mainly for vet major. The main major in our university is vet...but the building has a rumor that it was built with the money of retake examination (we have to pay 2000yen/1 retake) so, we think it unfair that the building is for vet students. Because, our major is still using a very very old building which even doesn't have an elevator!! It is the 3rd oldest building in our university, however the newest building with latest equipment is 10th one!

Anyway, less people in the library is comfortable. It is easy to take a seat and we can use a wide space. I like studying in the library, because when I am studying at home, there is a lot of annoying things that interrupt my study. I rarely watch, TVs don't matter. However, comic books, PC, interrupt my study. And, if there are people while I'm studying, they also interrupt me because they make noises and sometimes ask me something to do.

So, while I am in the library, I'm free from such annoying things. No one speaks loud and there are no computers, comic books, lol. However, there is another problem. Too comfortable. I always fall into a sleep in the library while I'm studying, and sometimes even have a dream!! Yeah, it is very comfortable in the library for studying, but can't deny I am also wasting time (for the view of study). That's sucks because I have to study hard :s But I know, if I study at home, I can't concentrate more. However, is there any good idea to spend a good time in the library? If you have some good ideas, please let me know! I want to make good use of my time as possible as I can while I am in the library.

November 20, 2007

Hana no Na (The Name of The Flower)

Why can't I say though it is simple
Why do you understand it however I can't say

Even if I forget the sky I saw with you
I won't forget that I was with you

If you were a flower
You may not be different from lots of other flowers
There is a song that only I
Who chose one of them can sing
There is a song that only you can hear

The fact that I exist here is the evidence that you existed
The song that I put here is the evidence that I put it with you

Since I borrowed power to live
I have to return it while I'm living

Remember that only when you forget smile and tears
There is a song that only you
Who got lost in the same agony can sing
There is a song that only I can hear

Everyone wants to meet someone
Everyone is waiting for someone
If you wanna meet someone
There is someone who is waiting for it

If you were a flower
You may not be different from lots of other flowers
Only for me and you who chose one of them

Remember that some time
Only when you forget smile and tears
There is a song that only you
Who chose one of them without hesitating can sing
There is a song that only I can hear
There is someone who is waiting only for me
There is someone who wants to meet only you

This is a latest single of BUMP OF CHICKEN which was released with another single 'Mayday' in this October. I think it is a typical type of songs that I like...the lyrics, melody, and of course his singing voice! lol. Its music is silent on balance, but is also brilliant in somewhere. This melody comes ingrained quietly into me. I feel it very calm.

Though I like BUMP OF CHICKEN, I didn't have any single of them. So, this single and the other...Mayday, were the first single of them I bought. However, I know that they have hidden tracks in their singles, and most of their coupling songs of singles don't exist in their albums. So, I wanna buy them some day. I don't like buying songs online because I like collecting CDs of my favorite artists, lol.

I also rarely listen to songs that I don't have interest unless I get a strong impression or something like that when I first hear the songs, lol. Most of my favorite artists came from there. About my favorite artists, plane, C-999, and Simon Isogai, I first listened to their songs at live houses when I went there to see my another favorite artist...and maybe fell into love? lol.

Anyway, however I like to share my favorite songs with someone, it is hard to share me your favourites, lol. I really really do not listen to other songs. So...please don't think badly of me. I'm sure I am sometimes conservative about things around me :P

November 12, 2007

For Who?

I like fasion...clothes. I think that the two most popular fashions in Japan for girls are 'casual fashion' and 'oneesan-kei' fashion. Of course, there are much more types of fashions like 'harajuku-kei', 'rock-kei' 'gothic & lolita-kei' etc. I like casual fashion. I like clothes that are easy to move. I sometimes run the steps of stations, ride on my motorcycle under 50 cc... so, if I am wearing clothes like 'gothic & lolita-kei' , I can not move well, hahaha. And such clothes are really expensive, and however if it were not expensive, they are not my taste. Actually, why I'm wearing casual clothes is because just I like them.

Why I don't wear 'oneesan-kei' clothes, is because I think they don't suit me. They are too 'kawaii' for me. Normally, girls who wear those clothes have long hair, pretty face(?), lol, and skinny bodies. And they are 'girls'. guys want girls to be. Maybe I'm far from their 'ideal girls', because I can pick insects up without getting scared, and not be shy about something that those girl are usually feel to be shy. It is my personal opinion, but such clothes seem to be clothes for being hit with guys :s And most of them also like big name brand products I think. However, it may be just my prejudice.

Anyway, I like fashion. For me, fashion is not for being hit for guys, but for making myself be satisfied. I want to be pretty for my satisfaction. I'm happy when I'm wearing clothes that I think nice. I like accessories too. Accessories make girls seem prettier if they are matching the clothes they wear.

However I have a great interest in fashion now, I was really quietly dressed until some years ago. I had no interest about clothes then. Most of my friends had already a big interest about fashion then, but I didn't. I had more interest about my favorite artists or comics at that time and didn't think that I had to stand on tiptoe. Usually my favorite changed later than most of girls around me. Actually, I started to have an interest in fashion when I was 19 years old, hahaha.

Anyway, I am thinking of going to winter clearance sale. I will get some clothes there~. Shopping is one of my favorite things. But sadly, I can not buy a lot of clothes because I'm still a poor student :P

November 1, 2007

My Taste of Fish

It is not a story of what kind of fish I would like to eat, but about aquariums. I like aquariums. Probably I can stay there whole a day if I have a lot of time.

Many girls like dolphins. Of course they are not a fish...mammals. And girls also like seals,, cute livings. I like them too, but my favorites are kinds of flat fishes like ray, lol. Their way to swim is cool! Their fins seem to be flattering in the water. And I also like their foolish faces. Looking their faces makes me feel calm.

I remember, when I first went an aquarium on a date was when I was a high school student. We went to Kasairinkai aquarium. The aquarium stands beside the sea, and my boyfriend slipped and was about to fall into the sea when we were walking the seaside. It was regretful that only his left leg went into the sea, lol. I don't remember much about the date but definitely remember that he was about to fall into the sea!

However, the best aquarium I have been was an aquarium in Okinawa. Churaumi aquarium. I think it is one of the biggest aquariums in Japan. I went there with my best friend last September. We visited Okinawa and saw sights. So, Churaumi aquarium was one of them. The aquarium was bigger than we had thought, so we were excited. There were many many fish and livings from the sea. One funny thing, is when we went to the experience corner, there were some guys that were afraid of touching trepangs. They were talking like, "Hey, you first" "No, it seems disgusting! You should do firstly" "How about decide the turn with paper stone and scissors?", lol. It seemed really funny because their looks didn't seem like they were not able to touch livings like them. However beside them, we were touching starfishes and trepangs A LOT. Because of the experience, I worry about future Japan since I am sure that we were manlier than those guys at that time, lol.

Another favorite fish of mine is some kinds of congers that seem like a worm which comes out from sand in the sea. I like their shape!! Don't you think they are so cute? So, if you like seeing normal popular livings in the aquarium, I don't recommend you to go out with me to an aquarium. Otherwise, you will have to spend a lot of time in front of strange fish I like! Ah~, I really want to keep them at home~. Please give me them! But I know, it would be hard to keep them at home :P