The Theme Song Of This Trip

After exploring 明洞 for a while, I started feeling go back home. I felt sorry for him because it seems like he wanted to hang out a little bit more, but anyway, I knew that I was tired. I told him I would just catch a train and go back to my Momo's. However, it was really really nice of him that he offered he would drive me there. But...there was a problem. I took a bus from 恵化 station when I went there. I didn't know the address nor the way to the bus station. Then, he told me to use his phone to call my friend. So, I called him, and they talked and he drove me to the university. It's a shame I'm not good at location so actually I asked Momo to come to pick me up to the place where we reached...I always get a help from kind people. I'm really thankful!

So, I got home with Momo safely. We talked about what we did that day. After a while, he suddenly started studying listening to the radio (It was an English class program, what a serious student he is!!) and when we finished, we went back to the conversation. You know, sometimes what you see, hear or smell, whatever, leaves you a strong impression and they will be connected tightly to each other so you will remember about the other when you meet one of them again. My theme music of the trip to Korea is definitely this song that Momo played that night...I just felt it was calm and the simple lyrics were just came into my heart. I think, the timing was just perfect.

←previous

next→

The Spring Dream I've Had One Day

When I decided it, this song was playing in my head.
♪I'm coming to see you by train~
..Actually, not by train when I'm going...maybe I have to change the lyrics and say ♪I'm coming to see you by overnight bus~, lol.

This week has been very busy. On Monday, transportation was messed up. Because of the planned black out, JR line didn't come to my station　They cut down the number of trains and also reduced the area. Some lines were not even working. I already knew that the line I take wasn't coming to my station at that time, but left home earlier than usual with having a small hope that it might come when I get to the station. However, the front door of the North exit was closed (I saw it closed for the first time!) and two staff was telling people that the line won't come today and we have to walk outside of the station to South entrance if we want to take Keio line (usually, we can go through the station). When I was leaving home, I already saw a text message from my boss telling me that I don't have to come (actually, he could not come) because it may be so tough and I may not be able to go back home later. Even though I read it, I chose going to work somehow because the day was my turn to stay over at the lab. So, I told my boss that I was gonna come, and it took for 4 hours to my workplace...so stupid! I experienced being in a very packed train for the first time in 10 years or so (I hadn't experienced it since I graduated high school) and was already tired when I finally got to work. Actually I had a cold since a few days ago, and it made me feel even worse enough to make me see a doctor after work. And since the Seibu line didn't come to the station, I walked for 40 minutes to the closest JR station.

Even next day, I wasn't allowed to sleep well. I got up one hour earlier than usual because the trains were not working normally yet, and next day again...I found myself being tired because of those stuff. At the night I stayed at the hospital, I was supposed to get up at 3 in the morning, test blood samples of some patients that have serious status at that time, and then turn off all the machines to prepare for the black out. You know how much I got relieved when I heard the black out was going to be canceled...And when the weekdays were finally over, I noticed that every plan I had on weekend was canceled again. I know I can't say anything if I was told to think about the people in Tohoku that were attacked by tsunami...however, it was something. I was stressed and also lost the chance to release those stress. Drinking, wedding, performance...every event was and is going to be canceled and having a boring a day because of it, however I didn't feel like playing around stupidly. And today? WORK. I think it's coming to touch the line soon if I keep feeling like this. It's something more mental. I know that it doesn't matter for me to work harder than usual, however, if I don't have anywhere to let go the stress, it does matter. Actually, I know what I want. I know what saves me from this depression, and makes me feel calm and composed. However, it's not available. That means I need to deal with it by myself somehow, so I decided to go on a short trip this weekend. But to be honest, I wonder if it will work...I hope it will make me feel better even if it will be only a little bit...

The day is almost there, 頑張れ myself.

咲く Love

I'm sure I've posted here about my view of marriage and stuff in the past. I've been thinking that I don't need a wedding party, and if I had money that I can spend on such a party, I'd rather spend it on traveling. But joining the wedding party of my friend the other day, made me change my mind a little bit...even if it's for temporal. I felt like having such a sweet wedding party someday :)

However I haven't been to wedding parties so much, I think that party will be one of the most impressive in ones that I will go in my life. It was a very impressive hand-made party. My friend; the bride, made her wedding dress by herself and other accessories and stuffs, the video of their life till now and how they met...almost everything was made by the bride, groom and their friends as well. Even the arrangement of the program was great. The timing of doing some small game between conversation times was well arranged so we never got bored. And the game itself was really funny and amazing.

The game was a quiz game with prizes. Three pairs of male and female are chosen by cards and had to play a game. For example, in first one, the girl had to put a bib to the guy and poor coke into his mouth. When he finishes the bottle, they get the right to answer the quiz. And if the answer is correct, they will get prizes! So, they had to win the game and also had to know the answer of the question. Each question had three choices. The groom and bride had to join the game as well, but since the questions were about themselves, they had a handicap. They had to finish two bottles to answer the question, lol. And the funny thing was, each question has some spice added.

The first question was, "Where was the place they went for the first date?" When one of the couples chose the correct one, the toastmaster said, "They held hand for the first time at that time...how about a kiss?" And everyone laughed. There was also a question which was humiliating(?) to answer there. The question was;

What is the groom's favorite part of the bride's body?

1. Her cute butt
2. Her big breasts
3. Her soft lips

...LOL!!!!! AMAZING!
Because of those silly lovely stuffs, I'm sure everyone enjoyed XD

I think, the party was filled with the love of the groom, bride and their friends. In the end of the party, I saw messages that the groom and bride wrote for each person they invited. It was very impressing. I'm sure the two sweet people will build a sweet family :) I'm very happy that I went there, and remembering the memories still make me smile even after a few days!!

Btw, I like one of the songs that they used in their video. Actually, I hadn't listened the original one so many times but knew the song because one of my ex sometimes sang it when we went to karaoke. I like the gentle melody and also the lyrics. Too bad my translation skill sucks.



*****


Let's name an unknown flower
So that you won't be beaten by cold of the only winter in the world
And you can pick yourself up when you hear someone

The mass of lives remove the asphalt and
Whenever seeing each other they share the loneliness of time they were separated
And they look like the sun and moon

Whether the flowers get fruit or fall without blooming
They are looking at you and someones future in the spring wind

Whenever petals of sakura scatter
Another hopeless love disappears in tears and smile
And you grow up again
The strong pure sorrow, the sorrow of just chase will not change forever
Please don't lose the love blooming inside you...

You looked sad and lost in the crowed in downtown
Please don't say anything
I'm sure that it can't be in words
The tears you've shed will become rain and heal my wound on heart
And the brightness you had in you eyes won't be messed up by the passage of time

Everyone doesn't wanna lose the flower they have on the shore of heart
It's not strong one but single one swaying frailly
However storms come and beat me with the wind, the rain will stop someday
As much as the number of the petals, I feel the strength of life

Whenever petals of sakura scatter
Another hopeless love disappears in tears and smile
And you grow up again
The strong pure sorrow, the sorrow of just chase will not change forever
It's love blooming inside you and me...

Let's name an unknown flower
So that you won't be beaten by cold of the only winter in the world
And you can pick yourself up when you hear someone

Am I Becoming Insane?

Since I hadn't been listening to this kind of music, it just surprised myself. I've been listening to something more pop or rock in the past. I don't know what changed, but just feel like listening to this with full volume recently (of course I don't do that because it's too noisy for people around me). I downloaded one of their album fully few weeks ago and have kept listening to it.

I've had some chances to listen to something similar to this, but wasn't really interested at that time. Although it was something not annoying, and also not my taste; I just had neutral feeling. Timing is interesting. I found that interesting that I might have gotten chances to enjoy them more in the past, but it didn't come into my heart at that time. So, it's something new for me from now. But maybe everything comes up to me when it naturally has to happen :) I'm happy that my world of music got a little bit widened :P

Ohhaaaa~

I didn't realize it's been ten years since this song (which starts from 1:35 in this youtube video) was released!! I remembered about this song when I was talking to friend at izakaya restaurant. Since she is an elementary school teacher, she sometimes teaches some performances to kids. She told me she recently taught the dance of 慎吾ママのおはロック(Shingo Mama no Oha Rock). When I heard it, I said, "wait, wasn't it long time ago? Do kids know the song?" and she told me they don't so she showed them a video, lol.

"Shingo Mama" is a character that Shingo Katori (SMAP) played in a project in a variety show on TV. The project is "Shingo Mama's secret breakfast" which lets busy mothers sleep in the morning by stopping the alarm clock and making breakfast for kids and father. Since he plays mother, he cooks with wearing one-piece dress, apron, and make up. What is always done is mayo chucchu (Shingo Mama loves mayonnaise, so he swallows it from the bottle whenever he finds it in the fridge) and a good bye kiss from the father to Shingo Mama when he is leaving for work which looks really funny (fathers are always shy) :P

Anyway, this song was very popular at that time and went million seller :) Haha, I just wanted to share this funny PV. But he looks young in this video...of course, he was ten years younger than now when he made it :P

The Paper Plane Splits The Cloudy Sky

"How are you?" Are you still feeling sad?
"I'm ok. I've already gotten used to being betrayed"
"I don't remember how to smile since the sky doesn't smile anymore"
So you muttered, and smiled

"Come on, look up"

I wrote my dream on underside of the exam, made a paper plane and casted it toward tomorrow
It will split the cloudy sky, build a rainbow bridge and take all of us with it

Hey, do you still remember the sky we looked at together?
We used to throw a plane named "Möwen"
I want to change your smile
I didn't have anything, but drew your portrait
It was really horrible and we...everyone smiled

The wind held us and pushed our back
Thy sky smiled as well
It made us smile
We are carried on the wind having each dream

Let's open arms

I wrote my dream on underside of the exam, made a paper plane and casted it toward tomorrow
It will split the cloudy sky, build a rainbow bridge and take all of us with it



Remembering how to smile, I think I'm going toward a good direction. However I don't know where the exact place is, I think I'm fine. I've noticed the ore of the stone I wanted was fake..It was not really a fake one, it just had a lot of impurities. I've known something was wrong, but I didn't want to admit it. But don't take it wrongly, it really had some pureness. Anyway, now I'm in a kind of positive situation. Everything is going well. Err, maybe not everything, maybe almost everything :)

Beside everything, what makes me excited the most is the trip I'm going on next month. Man, I'm looking forward it too much so that I worry I might be disabled after that having anything to look forward to, lol. As I mentioned in my old post, this time I have some wish lists; trying new things, and I already started to accomplish it. *Sending an inquiry in English*, lol. Dooooooooooooooooooon't laugh, I'm dead serious!! :P I don't know formal English I can use in such a situation since my English is based what I learned at junior high, high school and talking to friends casually. I feel embarrassed when I have to send some messages to people I don't know, hahaha.

I've been thinking about if I book a hotel for the first day or not, and if I ask for a picking up service. A girl being arriving at an airport surrounded by a lot of taxi drivers who are waiting for tourists to trick...for the first time...in the midnight! (←important part!!). Hmmm, sounds delicious dangerous :P Now, I decided to book a hotel for my first night...however don't know which hotel yet. Mmmm, which is better, the hotel I was told or another one...(murmuring).

浸食

I don't know what kind of impression do people who don't understand Japanese get from this song. As for me, it feels like I'm in a cruel dream which is sweet and languorous. Surrounded by the sticky voice, I have a strange sense. It's unrealistic. I want to be free from anything that bothers me, but I know it's nonsense. I don't want to do anything, I don't want anything to happen. However, the thing happens somewhere I can't reach and confronts me with the cruelest reality. I wonder if I will be released from any problems or negative feelings if my heart is eroded. I might be feeling like just falling down into a deep place.

I know that I have negative feelings and maybe a little bit being gnawn now because I prefer listening to this song and another song that is also cruel but beautiful.



I was eroded and lost control. I died then my instinct was born.

Flower

Just wanted to paste this video. I was not into L'Arc~en~Ciel in my old days, but of course I've heard this song. But I haven't listened to it carefully, and haven't seen the PV. Recently, I got a chance to see it when I went to karaoke with friend, and thought I like it. I've not been interested in Hyde, but now I say...Yeah, maybe he looks cool...but might look gay to some foreigners, lol.

By the way, I heard that for foreigners (might be just north Americans), karaoke is a shameful thing to go sober. A Canadian guy told me they never go to karaoke without alcohol. Because being drunk, no one cares if they sing well or not; everyone is the same. But if they are sober, if someone sings horribly, it may cause problems about the friendship because the person disgusts people...is that true??? DOES A PERSON'S ABILITY TO SING DESTROYS FRIENDSHIP??? I don't get it. At least among Japanese people, I haven't heard of such a case. We may make fun, but it never breaks friendship or something. So, such a new idea totally shocked me. But thinking about my foreigner friends, actually they didn't want to go to karaoke without drinking whenever I asked. Hmmm, might be true... :S And talking about karaoke, I went for the second time being alone. For the first time, I stayed there for 2 hours and it was tough. My throat was dying. So last time, I stayed there for 1 hour, but it was still tough, lol. One of my foreigner friends asked me if I went there alone to practice. Nah, I went there to release my stress. Singing in a loud voice is refreshing, isn't it? Especially when you don't have to care about anyone around you :P

Message For Myself

If I describe about past few months with just one word, I say it was like a firework. You might laugh, but I really feel so. As soon as being lighted, it went up with a noise, and the blossom came out. But the life of the fire flower was short. It shined prettily and disappeared so quickly. After that, there was only the bright impression remained with the smell of the powder, and loneliness was floating around the air silently.

"When I'm very depressed and sad, even feel like dying, I'm surprised to find myself still alive. However painful I feel, people around me live ordinary life and it relieves me a little." That's the words my friends said and it impressed me. However sad I am, the earth keeps rotating and the environment around me doesn't do anything with me. I know I was obsessed. I need a rest now. I have to slow down, spend my own time, and charge myself to be full. The mistake I made doesn't produce anything. I should take it. All I have to do is to think what was wrong and try not to cause the same problem again.

Don't be so depressed myself! However little it is, you can't deny there is a hope. Everything is unsettled about the future.

Hybrid Instrumental

This is a promotion video of an artist group that I like a lot recently. Actually, this music is one of the most favorite ones. It's the first track of their first CD.

I bought their CDs a few days ago. I'm a person who doesn't buy musics online, I'd rather buy a CD if I really like the music. But recently, I didn't even go to a CD store. I don't know why I had been unfamiliar with music lately, but the fact is, I hadn't bought any CD for a year. So, it means the music I bought had a power to break the rule :) It's a completely new type of music among CDs I have. Their performance is unique and powerful. I like it a lot. I was impressed when I heard this music at a store, and have wanted the composition since then. Now, finally I have it. And luckily, I got two tickets for their free mini in store live concert that will be made in January. Of course I want to go :D I wanna see their performance in person. It will be so great!! I'm excited :D For me, they are revolutionary children, lol.

タバコなんて大嫌い

　買い物行こうとした時、引き出しからライター持ち出したの見てあれって思った。
　描いてある国旗の絵見せられて、あぁ、それ見せたかったのかってちょっと安心した。でも、違った。

　丸一日一緒に居たこともあったけど、吸っているところなんて今まで一度も見たことなかったし、健康に悪いって言っていたのに…。

　確かに最近BEAMSとかでライター見たとき、タバコ吸い始めるよって言っていた。Are you sure?って聞いたけど、かっこいいライター持ちたいとかなんとか。ライターなんてタバコ吸わなくても持ち歩けるじゃん。

　部屋から外へ出たキミが、マルボロを出して火を付けた。





　I know you are sad.
　でも、今日で止めるから。





　そう言って、階段の脇まで行って立ち止まって一服。そんなこと言うなら初めから目の前で吸わないで欲しかった。涙が出そうになった。絶対に泣くものかと押しとどめた。


　タバコなんて大嫌い。
　悲しい現実から目を背けたくて背中を向けた。暗い夜道に雨が静かに降っている。

　先に行っていいよって傘を差し出されたけど待っているって小声で言った。外の気温で頬が冷たい。



　そういえば、冬休みにセルビアに帰るってもう言ったよね？



　まさかの追い討ち。そんなの聞いていない。年末一緒に過ごしたいから休み教えてって前に言ったのに。

　そうやって自由で、一人で決めちゃってから事後報告。私のことなんて考えていないでしょ？
　せめて、一緒に過ごした言っていっていたのにごめんねって一言があればだいぶ違うのに。

　君といる時間がどんなに好きかなんてちょっとしたいざこざの後に言ってくれたけど、そういうことされるとやっぱり不安になる。心がえぐられる。

　キミが他の友達とどういう風に接しているか知らないから、自分がどう特別なのか、他の人と違うのかよくわからない。友達に会ってみたいって言ったこともあるけど、キミのことだから多分忘れているよね。



　部屋に帰ってきてキミが、残りのタバコごと箱に水を入れて捨てた。私は見ていない振りをした。

　セルビアのことが気になって、ご飯を食べているときに思い切って聞いてみた。いつ帰るのかとか。休みはいつからいつまでなのかとか。

　正直勇気が必要だった。

　物事をずばずば聞けるときは、自分と相手を線引いて割り切っているときか、逆に絶対大丈夫と安心しきっているとき。





　キミに寄りかかり始めているけど、まだ完全には寄りかかれない。











　そんなネガティブな気持ちのときにふと聴きたくなったスノースマイル。　

I Like This Rhythm

I haven't listened to music so much recently. But I found something I like the other day :) The song reminded me about the time I went to my favorite artists' live concert a lot...it was some years ago. I haven't been to a big concert hall so much most places I went were a small hall in Shibuya or in Shimokitazawa...maybe once or twice in a month.

I like small concert halls because I can see the artist from close area. I like it when the place is crowded and everyone is jumping, singing, waving arms It's so fun when it feels like everyone's heart is connected :D

I don't know why, maybe it's just because the rhythm of this song is my taste. So, now I'm kind a miss it. Haven't been to such places for a long while...want to go. But I haven't listened to the songs I used to listened in those days. I don't know if they changed or not...haven't even checked their websites. Maybe my life style changed since some point.

One thing I never forget is, I used to like Iwase Keigo a lot. And he came to our University to make a small live concert during our school festival when I was there. It was so lucky! My favorite artist came to my place when I liked him! It was incredible. I remember when I noticed it, I called my friend and told about it. At that time, my voice trembled and my hand holding the phone was shaking, lol. Hmmm, I was that impressed. Hope that such a lucky thing happens to my life again :P

RADIOSTEREO

レディオステレオ　作詞/作曲：岩瀬敬吾

遊歩道座り込んであの頃の土を掘り起こしたんだ
確かあの日君の描いた笑顔の色をしていた

浴びるレディオの場所はあの頃と違って
今は思い出すだけだった君に会いたくなっていた

変われたか気になっていた僕は許されてるかい？
過ぎ去っていた歩道を振り返ってみた

いつも誰もいない所で日だまりになっていた場所を好んでいた
絶え間なく目に浮かんだ未来を希望としていた

浴びるレディオ抱いてつないだ道は続く
意外と暗くないのでつまむライトをOFFに光溢れてて

恐くないから会いに来て僕は許されてるかい？
行き交っていた時間も止まっていた

another day

許されてるかい
過ぎ去っていた
振り返ってみた
行き交っていた


When this song was released, I was a university student. I really liked this artist at that time, and was going to his live concert a lot. His songs were something like word games, for example, a lot of rylics didn't make sense but sounded good in the melodies. Sometimes, his voice itself sounded like part of the melody. Since this song was released, I think his new songs changed from past ones. They tend to make sense and sounded more emotional.

I haven't been to his live concert for a long while now. I don't deny I have much less passion about him compared to before. But somehow, I just remembered about this song recently. It's one of the songs I surely stayed with part of my life, and I felt like putting it here, that's it.

Connected with May Day

May Day / Bump Of Chicken

I heard the silence of you disliked by yourself
It came from far away even though I'm in front of you

I searched for the sender and reached a puddle
If it's a humans heart, I don't know the depth

It doesn't matter if it was me or not
Another thing is causing problems

Can I keep my breath until I reach the bottom of the heart?
I will keep diving until I find you sinking by yourself
We can get close in proportion to the pain
We will be together when we breathe again

I was also heard my silence
If you dive for me as well

Let's keep each other's kisses
Don't lose and bring it
I'll bring it to you disliked by yourself instead

Everyone is another living, another person
So, we can notice warmth when we know loneliness

Am I brave? I'll know all the pain you hid if I look into your heart once
Let's get hurt instead of hurting
It's not shareable, so it's good to have twice

You and me are scared of looking and showing oneself or looking into someone
But we were sending May Day like praying from ourselves we sank

The rescue signal ringing the side deep in the heart
You are there, come here, don't need to escape
I handed the kiss when I touched the sender
I got it from you

Am I brave?
Believe me, I will take you outside without releasing once I hold your hand
Can I keep my breath until I reach the bright outside of the heart?
We will be together when we breathe again


Have to listen to this song and live happily this month (*^_^*)

Home Sweet Home

I like this song since it sounds calm. I haven't listened to this song for a long while, but I wanna listen to it now since it's rounding in my mind :D This time I cheated because I found an English traslation that sounds much more natural than mine :P


Home Sweet Home / YUKI

The rain is starting to fall, and I'm tired of walking
Because I was chasing after the rabbit that I couldn't catch up to
Your eyes are breathing in the water of the transparent deep dark ocean floor
Call me, call me. I'm right here
Where should I go...where should I go...to get satisfied?

Let's go home, tomorrow
Will I be fine and be smiling?

Call my name, call my name. I will embrace you
Close your eyes and remember when you were little

You filled in the areas that needed more
I was able to forget sad feelings right away, so I'm not afraid

I tell lies and regret them
I suddenly became an adult
Become embarrassed and have sweat run down
Even so, there is a reason to continue dancing
Burn the soul, burn the soul. It's yelling
If you open up and go...and go...you will be saved

Let's go home, white rabbit
Let's meet at the other side of the moon
Let's go home, tomorrow
You will be smiling with your bare feet

Call me, call me. I will embrace you
Close your eyes and remember when you were little

The rain is starting to fall, and I'm tired of walking
Because I was chasing after the rabbit that I couldn't catch up to
Your eyes are breathing in the water of the transparent deep dark ocean floor
Call my name, call my name. I'm right here
If you say, say to your heart, you will be satisfied

Hinamatsuri -The Girl's Festival-

Today, March 3rd is the day of girl's festival. A lot of families that have female kid display special dolls and celebrate the day with eating chirashi-zushi, shell soup, colorful small rice crackers and drinking amazake; a sweet drink made from fermented rice. These special dolls are usually presented by the girl's parents or grand parents when she was born. People start displaying it in the beginning of spring and take away in the next day of the festival since it is said it makes them give daughter early into happy marriage. In every display, the main things; the Emperor and the Empress are there. Their style is that of Heian Era.

I like looking at these displays, especially greater scale ones. Because, there are a lot of people and stuffs that we had in that era, and they are really made well. Maybe you'll feel what I'm saying now when you take a look at them once, and you will be impressed. So, the girl's day display is really popular in Japan, and everyone knows about the day. There is even a very popular song about the festival day.


Ureshii Hinamatsuri (Happy Girl's Festival)

Let's put the light on lamps
Let's put the flowers; peach flowers
Five musicians are playing the flute and the drums
Today's Happy Girl's Festival

The Emperor and the Empress
They are beside each other and have a clear face
The court lady's white face looks like
My sister that came to be my brother's wife　

The spring wind that is slightly swinging
The light reflected in the gold folding screen
The Cabinet minister right side has a red face
Maybe he had some white sake

Wearing kimono and putting on an obi
Today I'm in my best clothes too
This good day in spring, March
It's the happier thing than anything, Hinamatsuri

Scott Murphy

I'm currently interested in an Artist whose name is Scott Murphy. He is from Chicago in the United States. He covers Japanese songs and sings them fluently, he also translated some songs into English, and they sound so cool for me. Maybe you can't notice that he is an American with his Japanese songs (but i think if you listen to them carefully, you might notice that some of his constant sounds sound stronger than Japanese as English speakers do). But yeah, when I listened to his songs at a store, I got so shocked, and bought some CDs of his.

I heard that he used to sing and play music in a punk band "ALLister", and couldn't even speak Japanese until he visited Japan some years ago. When he visited Japan, and listened some J-Pops, he liked them and started leaning Japanese by himself. It is interesting enough that an American artist covers J-Pops, but if the person can sing such songs well, it's more interesting. So, I'm curious about him so much. He is gonna come to Japan next year again. Hopefully I can go to his live concert and listen to his songs in person.

He writes a blog in Japanese too!
http://blog.livedoor.jp/scottie_allister/

花火 -Fireworks-

Hanabi / plane

You tell lies really well
With the speed even tears don't come out
Pass the ticket gate, and it's there soon
I saw the day's sight

However my last hope is gone
I have to walk the present time
"Don't worry, sleep well tonight"
I wanna hear words like that

Like the loneliness after fireworks
You catch and let off my heart
If I were you, I will absolutely protect you
I don't let off, can't let off

I was holding not to get astray
The sky we saw together standing on tiptoe
You looked down without saying anything
Beside me frolicking innocently

Like the loneliness after fireworks
You come to my mind softly
Can I forgive you longing for another one some day?

If I say I'm okay, it is a lie
Wanna meet you, can't meet you
My heart gets ache
What made me remind of you that was not here anymore was
The small station the train specially stopped

Like the loneliness after fireworks
You catch and let off my heart
If I were you, I will absolutely protect you
I don't let off, can't let off

In the noises after fireworks
You come to my mind softly
"See you again" in the end of the summer
The season started changing

You tell lies really well
With the speed even tears don't come out

Summer is the season that a lot of fireworks are displayed anywhere in Japan. I like going to fireworks displays, however I haven't been there for a few years. It is popular for girls to wear yukata...kind a kimono when they go to fireworks display or festival in the summer especially when they go there with their boyfriends. I guess guys like seeing girls in yukatas since they look different and much prettier than normal days :) I haven't gone on a date wearing my yukata with my bf since I was too shy to act like a 'normal girl', however I think that I should before getting old, lol.

Anyway, I felt the styles looking at fireworks are different between Japanese and Americans when I went to the Friendship festival at Yokota Air Base last summer. In Japan, we see them without saying anything since fireworks are things that make us feel a little bit lonely and sentimental since they are the symbol of the end of the summer. We sometimes say something like "Oh...so pretty" or something, and clap hands...but that's it. We don't say something loudly, and also don't whistle. However, when I saw some fireworks at the air base, American people were shouting and whistling a lot. I thought it interesting. However, I prefer Japanese style. Looking at fireworks wearing yukata and holding around fan. Hopefully, I have a nice boyfriend beside me at the time :P

I Want to Go to Enoshima

はるかな夕べ　作詞・作曲/岩瀬敬吾

何故昨日さえも憶えていないんだろう
何故不安な日は凍えてしまいそう
何故動けないと思ってしまうの
何ひとつ成し遂げられていないの
重ねてゆく中に思い出してしまったんだ

はるかな夕べ 動き出す列車は響き合い掛けのぼった
憧れはもう夢から覚めて何処かへと消えた
あれは確か君と見ていて綺麗だった

上手くやり直す事ばかり願った
今僕はひどくこじれてしまった
隠し続けるのはひどく胸を締め付ける

はるかな夕べ 動き出す列車の窓に立って眺めた
街並は揺れ遠い日差しが包んで溶かして行く
君の頬を黄色に染め綺麗だった

唱えた事がまるで指に止まる日
疑う事もなく来たんだと思う
空に似た

はるかな夕べ 動き出す列車は響き合い掛けのぼった
憧れはもう夢から覚めて何処かへと消えた
あれは確か君と見ていて綺麗だった


It's one of my favorite songs. It is writeen when Keigo went to Enoshima. He made it while he was in the jolting train which was called 'Enoden'.

I've heard that I can see pretty sunset in Enoshima. Since I listened to this song at live concert of Keigo at first, I've kept thinking of visiting Enoshima. I want to feel the scenes that are pictured in this song. This song has an atmosphere that is sad, mild, and warm.

I like the contrast of sunset. Especially sunset of summer. The orange and yellow light is so strong and makes silhouettes of things hard to see, but on the other hand, it makes very dark and long shadows too.

When I'm listening to this song, I always imagine a coach that is filled with orange light of sunset, and also the look of stores and houses on a street I can see from the windows, that are also hined by the sunset and making long dark shadows. I wanna experience the world that is filled with orange, yellow, and dark colour with the song at Enoshima someday.

The evening in the dinstance, I stood by the window of a pulling out train and gazed at it.
The rows of houses shook are been engulfing and melting by far off sunlight.
It dyed your cheeks yellow, and that was pretty.

The evening in the dinstance, the pulling out train echoed and I run up.
The longing already came out of a dream and dissapared somewhere.
I surely saw it with you and it was pretty.

Everything is By a Chance

'En' means a chance, fate, a relationship, a connection etc. Everyone has 'en' with someone and something, and can not live without it. I think that I have 'en' too, but always don't think that each of them are strong...maybe I'm afraid of believing something like a destiny. I think, every 'en' comes by a chance. They're not decided things before it happens, just happens accidentally. However, such accidents may make someones fate...I'm sure that what I'm writing is contradictory.

By the way, I like songs of surface. It is an artist from Japan, and I prefer their past songs that were made several years ago or so. I like their lyrics. I think that their songs arouse people's sympathy. Here, it is one of their songs whose title is 'en'.

En / surface

My songs should be listened to like this because of some chances

I'd like to think a great deal of it in the connections with various people

With someone, I can understand each other more than words

However my words didn't touch another one as I thought

I know that all of them are not fate

But I hope my words will reach more far

For example, if I got be unable to sing

How many connection wouldn't break?

'The relationship with them won't break however I try breaking it'

I wanna think like that though it is out of my character

Somehow I remember about you lately

Did the relationship with you end at that time?

I hope that one day I'll meet you by a chance and can say

'Hi, how's going?'

For example, if I was gone involuntarily

Someone would be going to worry about me?

They will wait for me coming back with smile

And will think that I'm as always

For example, if I got be unable to sing
How many connection wouldn't break?
'The relationship with them won't break however I try breaking it'
I wanna think like that though it is out of my character

Making friends like 'them' is not easy. I usually make some walls around me and don't show my real intention. Hmmm...It's better to say my character? Maybe everyone plays a part that people around the person want him/her to be in some degree. The character the person is playing should be not completely different from him/her...maybe it is part of the person. However, it shouldn't be real him too. Making oneself 100% sure to someone is impossible as long as they are different people. However, we can make the distance closer. For me, the person may be my good friend, boyfriend...or...I don't know. But I think if I break up with my boyfriend, and if he can become my Friend again, he will be a good friend who understands me a lot. Once we let each other know deeply he should know me much deeper than other normal friends.

I also think among close friends, there is fellow feeling. It doesn't exist upon the fear like the case of bullying...but exists on trust. I trust one of my ex-bf, lol. We hadn't been keeping in touch for a while, but when I bumped into him, it was easy to say hello. He had helped me when I was dying for a reason...He spent his time and money a lot however I was already not his gf. I thank him. I believe that he will help me again if I am in a really really serious trouble, and ask him to help. And I want to help him if he is involved in a serious trouble too :)

I don't have a lot of friends, but have a few good friends who I can say the names if I am asked to list my good friends. I think that's a happy thing. I can share every thought of mine with them. I'm glad that one of my ex-bf became one of my good friend because there are a lot of couples who don't want to see each other after breaking up (but to tell the truth, there was some while that we were like that). I don't think that it is fate but think that it is some 'en' that relationships with my friends is like this now :)