Be Positive!

That's what I have to be. I shouldn't be negative all the time. It's been a something tough for me recently (you might laugh because maybe it'll sound tiny if I tell you), but I need to blow it away somehow (>_<)=3 Since I have to stay over here (I'm at my workplace tonight), and I'm going back home tomorrow, I made a list what I'm gonna do when I get home.

1. Cleaning my room; I haven't cleaned my room for a while, so it's messy.
2. Getting some stuff at grocery store, and cook meal for dinner; my mom wouldn't be at home tomorrow night.

I rarely cook, so I can't cook (miso soup or curry rice are not counted as cooking :P) But I think, recent situation is a good chance for me to start cooking sometimes. Even though I won't be able to cook like someone (yes, yes, I know you would say comparing is waste), I would be happy if I can cook well in some degree and if the food makes somebody happy :D There is no way to get better if I never try. So, I HAVE TO try :X Now, I'm thinking about 和風ハンバーグ that I feel like eating now, and the other thing is けんちん汁 I can never forget. The one I ate on top of Mt.Takao with Singaporean friends few years ago was AMAZING...YUM!! I don't know how to make it, but hopefully, I can find a way someday :O So, maybe not both things at the same time...I mean, tomorrow. My dad and brother will eat the outcome of my experiment(?) tomorrow night and I hope that I wouldn't have to feel sorry about it :P

Anyways, I hope that I can forget negative things around me and being positive when I doing stuffs I have to do tomorrow.

My Wish List

● Bag
Kind a pretty one that matches with skirt or one piece-dress :) My only one pretty/casual bag is old; I bought it 5 or 6 years ago. Some parts are broken now :( Since my style is much more casual than pretty, I don't wanna get just a pretty bag. It has to go well with some of my clothes too :D

● Key case
I've bought my bf a good key case. But haven't bought myself such a thing yet, lol. Maybe I tend to buy something better as a present for someone than something for myself :P Actually, the one that I gave him was my taste; I mean, kind a thing what myself want to use..but maybe mannish...? Who cares! Actually, I liked it. When I was buying it I thought like "if he didn't like it, maybe I would use it!" I found a nice COIN CASE at a store the other day. I really like the design. That's too bad it wasn't a key case. It it was, I would definitely buy it..if it's not too expensive.

● Watch
Maybe that's the thing I will buy the earliest. I really don't wear watches now, but recently I was affected by someone, and got chances to browse watches at stores. I haven't paid attention to watches before, but I thought it was cool. So MAYBE? I'll buy a watch soon. And it won't be a girlish one. It will be a little bit or more mannish casual one, because such kinds of watches are what I was attracted by.

Recently, I'm getting chances experiencing new things. And some of them are giving me sort of influences; making me feeling like doing something new. I really don't like being forced to change my style. I don't wanna overreach myself, being myself is my style. Even though I'm slow than other people sometimes, it's okay. As long as I don't care about it; like when I didn't care about fashion when everyone around me was so interested in fashion in my late teens :D The little changes are happening naturally now. I LOVE IT.

Anyway, I want to get things on my wish list. Hope that it will come soon...maybe not??? But I WANT TO.

Ohitorisama Debut

"Ohitorisama" means oneself. If you go to restaurant or somewhere, a waiter asks how many people it is, so if you are alone, the person will say "Ohitorisama desuka?" The word was in fashion a few years ago. Since being "Ohitorisama" is becoming common. Before, it had a little negative impression, but now it's not like that...maybe.

I was a person who hasn't been to some places alone. I haven't even been to a cafe alone. But about cafe, that's because going to a cafe is kind an extravagant thing for me, so if I go there, it's always with someone, not alone. I'm a girl who can go to Yoshinoya or Matsuya alone; some girls feel shy to go alone. Even I go to such places alone, I haven't been to karaoke or movie alone. So, today was something new.

I came back home in the morning after work feeling like going somewhere alone, so I decided to go to karaoke alone because I remembered one of my friends said she liked going to karaoke alone. Plus, I wanted to go to see a movie because today was 1st day :) So I did two new things; going to karaoke and movie alone :D

I don't know why but it felt really good today, maybe because of the weather?? I wasn't shy about doing that as before. It was something fresh. I wanted to try some Krispy Kreme doughnuts as well because I haven't eaten them yet, but didn't get the chance today :( Hmmm, maybe next time. Anyway, I enjoyed. I feel like I'm mentally more stable than before recently. Something has been changing, and it brought me something stable. And maybe a lot of things of myself are getting better. I'm trying to be patient, trying to get close to my ideal, and I'm more outgoing now...etc. I'm happy about it. Hope that everything turns to be something better.